It’s Friday!

It’s Friday..the point where my “work” to do’s transform into my “weekend” to dos.

Realistically, I didn’t get to the lazy portion, and probably won’t. But that is totally ok…I’m not in the mood to be lazy. My energy and dedication was killed off yesterday, and I finally revived it.

Yesterday, I got my feet stuck in the mud. Completely disheartened and tore down by a conversation I had that evening, I wondered why this person was in my life. It’s amazing who we choose to have as our partners. Some partners will cheer you on when you want to change the world, other’s won’t understand.

I suppose we all want our own cheering section. Awhile back BNET had an article about surrounding yourself with positive reinforcements - people who believed in you. It definitely makes a difference in your motivation level, sense of self worth, dedication, and ability to accomplish the untouched territory. You can’t charge on an adventure, if the only ones saying goodbye are convinced you will fail.

During a six year relationship, I fought hard to keep my ambitions quiet, and dreams of leaving a footprint for only my soul to see. Why? My partner didn’t understand, didn’t believe, and ultimately, didn’t want me to succeed. I never let my dream go..but they definitely didn’t flourish. After living months on a relationship hiatus, I began to flourish inside and outside. And Damn, did it feel fucking amazing!

Then one innocent phone call, turns into breathing disbelief into me again. Ashamed I allow someone million miles away to have such an effect on my motivation, but it made me realize something much more grand. Run with a partner who believes in you. If you don’t have a partner, run alone. Don’t ever, ever, take a detour to spend precious time on someone who doesn’t want to believe.