It’s Friday!

It’s Friday..the point where my “work” to do’s transform into my “weekend” to dos.

Realistically, I didn’t get to the lazy portion, and probably won’t. But that is totally ok…I’m not in the mood to be lazy. My energy and dedication was killed off yesterday, and I finally revived it.

Yesterday, I got my feet stuck in the mud. Completely disheartened and tore down by a conversation I had that evening, I wondered why this person was in my life. It’s amazing who we choose to have as our partners. Some partners will cheer you on when you want to change the world, other’s won’t understand.

I suppose we all want our own cheering section. Awhile back BNET had an article about surrounding yourself with positive reinforcements - people who believed in you. It definitely makes a difference in your motivation level, sense of self worth, dedication, and ability to accomplish the untouched territory. You can’t charge on an adventure, if the only ones saying goodbye are convinced you will fail.

During a six year relationship, I fought hard to keep my ambitions quiet, and dreams of leaving a footprint for only my soul to see. Why? My partner didn’t understand, didn’t believe, and ultimately, didn’t want me to succeed. I never let my dream go..but they definitely didn’t flourish. After living months on a relationship hiatus, I began to flourish inside and outside. And Damn, did it feel fucking amazing!

Then one innocent phone call, turns into breathing disbelief into me again. Ashamed I allow someone million miles away to have such an effect on my motivation, but it made me realize something much more grand. Run with a partner who believes in you. If you don’t have a partner, run alone. Don’t ever, ever, take a detour to spend precious time on someone who doesn’t want to believe.

To-Do: Think

Today was a think day. I would be lying if the to-do list wasn’t there, this time fitting on a roll of toilet paper versus a coffee-filter, but it got washed away.

I believe in the journey of life, we meet people who mentor us. These are not the so-called “life coaches” which somehow got so popular. These are your everyday people who share a little wisdom with you. I have had some great mentors: teachers, pastors, friends, coworkers, etc. Their wisdom and tid bits of goodies are priceless.

A great mentor of mine, kept pounding in my head the importance of holding back and just thinking. I “plow” through ideas to get them done, as he eloquently put it. I have slowly become comfortable with just having a “think” day. Forget the to-do list, it will be there in the morning. Somedays, you just need to think.

Today, I got to think, laugh, and get a little work done. Actually alot of work done, if you consider “thinking” something of great importance. Above is a picture of my African Thinker I got from an old friend. He symbolizes the importance of thinking first before reacting. It is important to think and discuss just as accomplishing an action.

Sinful Sunday - Nov 16

I wrote today’s to-do list after only 4 hour of sleep. The entire weekend I willingly entered house arrest ordered to only study my on-line class. My expectations of plowing through the modules where met with a resounding slap of reality. Permanently behind, the next weeks of the starting holiday season won’t be filled with Egg Nog and late turkey sandwhichs, but overdose of coffee to stay awake to finish before my deadline.

Revolting against my Christian upbringing, my Sundays have a to-do list. Someday maybe I will become so wise and humble to put the Sunday to-do lists to grave, once again reclaiming Sunday’s to sit on my laurels. For now, I am a willing sinner.

Today’s list includes a bit of this and that…the main one is to head off to Sam’s Club. American society, regardless of the number of household occupants, make it appealing to gorge our desires in mass proportions. Thus, popcorn, trash bags, pretzels, coffee, tampons, and everything else is bought in bulk. It would be a healthier option to run out of daily items, and walk my ass to the store everyday. Instead, I take the lazy American route. That way, I can fit more on my to do list.

Time to get started…